And oh MAN, is the foreshadowing thick here. I love it so much!
For all intents and purposes, Dean is dying in Faith. He also is dying in In My Time of Dying. Both times he dies and both times someone ELSE ends up dying to save him. OK, so now in "present day," Dean basically is dying again. Who has to die to save him THIS time?
Doctor: His heart is damaged.
I find that oddly metaphorical for Dean, physically, emotional and mentally, in canon and fanon.
And even though Dean is totally accepting of his own impending death ("Our only choices are burial or cremation"), Sam is Not. Having. It.
Dean: I know it's not easy but I'm gonna die and you can't stop it.
Sam: Watch me.
Dean: You're not gonna let me die in peace, are you?
Sam: I'm not gonna let you die. Period.
It BREAKS my heart when Sam calls John's cell to tell him what's going on. He so clearly needs help, support, ideas, SOMETHING, and yet he gets none of that from his Dad. He even rushes in to assure his Dad everything will be fine, don't worry.
Sam: Hey, Dad. It's Sam. Uh, you probably won't even get this, but, uh, it's Dean. He's sick, and uh the doctors say there's nothing they can do. Um, but, uh, they don't know the things we know, right? So, don't worry, cause, uh, I'm gonna do whatever it takes to get him better. Alright? Just wanted you to know.
ANOTHER thing that breaks my heart is when Dean shows up at the hotel to meet Sam, knowing he's dying. He's wearing this big 'ole hoodie and I've always thought it was Sam's that Dean was wearing for comfort. But I was thinking yesterday that Dean's clothes were probably cut off him in the emergency room. It isn't that far-fetched that he actually WOULD be wearing Sam's sweatshirt when he left the hospital. It makes my heart swell a little, OK???
Dean's make up in this scene is perfect too. He's pale and has big circles under his eyes. He's sweaty and weak...he looks like death. Jensen NAILS this part.
When Sam takes him to the tent revival, Dean so clearly doesn't want to be there, but he still goes. He goes for Sam, he sits where Sam wants him to. They even argue about it, but he still does it, for Sam. And then, (oh man. this didn't rock me when I watched it but thinking back on it, I'm feeling all emotional), Sam is SO EXCITED when the reverend chooses Dean. He has a HUGE smile on his face. Dean doesn't want to go but Sam makes him. So, Dean goes. And then after he's healed and he passes out and Sam freaks a little, running right to him. WAHHH.
Later Dean asks the reverend why he was chosen to be saved, what makes him WORTH saving. Here's what the reverend says: "When I look at you, I see a young man with a job to do, an important job and it isn't finished."
And later, Layla's mom asks: "Why do you deserve to live more than my daughter?"
And the thing is, Dean doesn't think he does. He believes that his life is utterly disposable, that it doesn't matter whether or not he lives or dies. I think this is pretty interesting considering how hard he worked to convince Sam that hunting mattered, that THEY mattered. It's just more of Dean's heart being metaphorically damaged. He doesn't think much of himself.
When he finds out that someone else died so he could live, Dean is FURIOUS. And Sam looks so guilty and heartbroken.
Dean: You never should have brought me back.
Sam: Dean, I didn't know.
That's a conversation I fully expect them to repeat, in reverse, during S3. But it gets even worse when Dean finally admits that he already suspected it. Deep down, he knew the minute he saw the ghost on-stage that he'd been healed by a reaper. He was in denial and letting Sam take the blame, but he knew. He's really mad at himself. And maaaaybe, deep down inside, he really wanted the miracle to be real too?
Sam: We're not gonna kill a human being Dean. We do that and we're no better than what he is.
Sam: To cross a line like that...it's evil.
Dean: She was desperate. Her husband was dying. She'd have done anything to save him.
Sam: You said it yourself Dean, you can't play God.
OH FORESHADOWING, I love you!
When Dean realizes the reaper is there to kill him, he just stands there and takes it. He doesn't try to fight or run. He thinks it's justice, that he deserves to die. Is he reckless with his own life now (in present day) because he thinks he deserved to die all the way back here? He has so much guilt after John dies but I don't remember him feeling guilt after-the-fact about not dying in Faith. It's interesting. I get that it was a stranger versus the planned sacrifice of his father's life, but still. *ponders*
Quick random things:
-The boys carry Tarot cards!
-"Don't Fear the Reaper" playing during the scene when they figure it out....HEE!
-I think Dean saying he'll pray for Layla is incredibly cheesy but...his FACE. It just rips me up a little inside.
-Why do the crappy Buffy alums keep getting gigs on SPN? Give me Angel! Or Gunn! Or Giles! Or ANYONE GOOD!
My notes say "SAM IS NAKED" in big letters. What more do you need to know?
One of the things I love most about this episode is that it really showcases the boys brotherliness. Blowing off steam, annoying each other, being BOYS. I also love the parallel between their escalating pranks and the escalating pranks of the kids in the Hell House.
OK, so this episode is set in Richardson, Texas, which I drive through every single day. I know Jensen grew up there, so I'm sure he joins me in the uncontrollable giggles I get when I think about how they didn't even TRY to make Vancouver look like Dallas. There are no woods, no random trails in the middle of nowhere, no non-street lighted areas, no drive-up diners, absolutely no PINE TREES along the highway, in fact there are very few trees at all along I-35. *exhales*
Did you know http://www.hellhoundslair.com/ is an actually Web site? Man, that eye at the top FREAKS me out. I can't keep it pulled up on my screen long enough to actually explore the site.
I love the dork boys who call themselves "professional paranormal investigators." I love them lecturing Sam and Dean about EMF. The looks on their faces are PRICELESS.
For no known reason, Dean touching Sam's underwear is HOT. And Sam naked is HOT. And Dean checking out Sam naked is HOT. MMMMM. *rewinds 700 times*
Dean: People believe in Santa Claus... why aren't I getting hooked up every Christmas?
Sam: 'Cause you're a bad person.
I love Sam confronting Dean about the itching powder and calling him a "friggin' jerk." I love that Sam almost knocks over the table when he grabs his stuff. It's a nice detail.
The scene in the diner with the string-pull-ey-thing DELIGHTS me. Sam can hardly control his glee over the beer/glue stunt. And then I LOVE that they steal the pull-ey thing to distract the cops, even though they were using it to annoy each other first. They SO are BFFs. *beams*
Dean: I barely have any skin left on my palm.
Sam: I'm not touching that line with a ten foot pole.
Sam: Kind of makes you wonder, of all the things we hunted, how many existed just cause people believed in them?
Dean is so impressed Sam called the dorks and pretended to be the producer. It's ADORABLE. And I love when they call the prank truce. It's so cute, I hardly can stand it!
Quick random things:
-I love Dean calling out "who you gonna call" to distract the cops
-I love that a double dare is the most persuasive argument Dean can come up with
-"Sweet Lord...of the Rings!"
-The guy in the coffee shop says "Here you go Jensen." How did THAT get through editing?? I kinda love it even though it's a huuuge goof.
-What WOULD Buffy Do?
-Mordecai is taller than Sam!!
Oh boys! *draws hearts*