I can read Sam's mind (wendy) wrote,
I can read Sam's mind

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moving eight miles a minute for months at a time

One week to new SPN! EXCITING!

Do you remember last year (or was it the summer before that?) when someone did a ~thing~ where people posted what icons they wanted and then all these amazingly talented icon makers created awesomeness? And everything was shareable, and people were happy? I wish that'd happen again. I am jonesing for new icons, both fandom and non-fandom. If I knew more icon-makers I'd facilitate it myself, but alas. I pretty much use up any graphically-related favors during Big Bang. ICOOOONS.

I finished an interesting book last night: Someday This Pain Will Be Useful to You by Peter Cameron. It's about an 18-year-old guy named James, who is struggling with a nutty family, his sexuality, depression, anxiety, and plans for the future. I read some reviews that compared it to Catcher in the Rye (which I mostly didn't care for), and I do see the similarities.

This book was on a YA gay-themed reading list, which was why I originally picked it up. But, despite the Amazon review, (which isn't quite the actual storyline), I found the sexuality storyline rather interesting because it's never resolved. Both James's parents ask him if he's gay, but he never answers. And, he does have an attraction to a guy he works with, but he says over and over that he just wanted the guy to be his friend (even though it seems to the reader like he wants more). James never comes to a conclusion for himself, and neither does the reader. It's left very open ended.

This book also has an underlying theme about language. James believes that language and words should be used correctly and specifically for ease of communication. Yet, he also purposely uses this same premise to hold people away from him and make communication difficult. Because of the emphasize on language, the book is written in this really clean and striking way. I love how the author crafted his words to paint specific pictures, with multiple meanings.

Here's one passage I really like, as I relate to it strongly:
Being alone is a basic need of mine like food and water, but I realize it is not so for others. My roommates seemed to enjoy living in the same room in a farting, let's-smoke-dope kind of way and didn't seem to mind the fact that they were never alone. I only feel like myself when I am alone. Interacting with other people does not come naturally to me; it is a strain and requires effort, and since it does not come naturally I feel like I am not really myself when I make that effort. I feel fairly comfortable with my family, but even with them I sometimes feel this strain of not being alone.
I also really love this passage, which utterly captures that feeling of having a light bulb moment about yourself, and which also shows the main character's emphasize on words:
"No," I said. "You're right. It's true."

"What's true?" my mother asked.

"I am disturbed," I said. I thought about what the word meant, what it really means to be disturbed, like how a pond is disturbed when you throw a rock into it or how you disturb the peace. Or how you can be disturbed by a book or movie or the burning rain forest or the melting ice caps. Or the war in Iraq. It was one of those moments when you feel you have never heard the word before, and you cannot believe it means what it means, and you think how did this word come to mean that? It seemed like a bell or something, shining and pure, disturbed, disturbed, disturbed, I could hear it pealing with its true meaning, and I said, as if I had just realized it, "I am disturbed."

Lastly, I stumbled on a cool link: 100 Most Educational iPhone Apps. Really, really cool stuff there! It's worth scrolling through the list to see what catches your eye.

Happy Thursday ya'll!
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