December 31st, 2013

Life is About Creating Yourself

no distance that could hold us back

So, for unknown reasons, I feel like I need to write something really meaningful and profound here, and it's just not in me. I keep not posting because of it. That's silly, so I'm just making myself get over it and writing what I have to say instead.

Figured out why I couldn't switch icons or click links or send twitter replies -- my new virus update automatically blocked all social media. WHAT THE. What even is the point of a computer without social media??

Say, there any version of LJ Archive, or a similar program that still exists?

AND ALSO. I want an icon that says "things change" -- anyone feel creative?

New Year's Eve is a weird holiday. I always think there should be big plans and there never are. Sometimes I'm ok with that and sometimes I'm not. This year I have zero plans and am kind of bummed about it. Mostly I really just wish I could be at deirdre_c's house, eating fondue. But instead I'll be snuggling with Max, watching Frasier on Netflix. I mean, for me this IS a good time, but it also happens to be what I did last night. Not very special. Alas.

When I get moving here in a few minutes, I'm going to the grocery store to get the stuff to make Southern Style Slow Cooker Vegetarian Black Eyed Peas Recipe to take to my parent's house tomorrow. Wish I could think of a special treat to make myself for tonight, but nothing sounds good.

OK, enough wallowing. When I read this entry again years from now, I want to remember that Sunday night I had a really fun (and delicious) dinner with zubeneschamali. I want to remember that yesterday I had lunch with a dear friend. I wasn't looking forward to it for various, selfish reasons, but we had a blast. I want to remember this stack of cards on my desk that I need to acknowledge, and the stack of cards next to it that I want to send. I want to remember love and peace and happiness.

Do you make New Year's Resolutions? Some years I do, and some years I don't. Not really feeling the need for it this go-round. 2013 was a tough year for me in my work life. In retrospect, I can see how I contributed directly to those feelings and I'd rather like to avoid them in 2014. If I want things to be better, I have to make them better. Give in, get along, let go. Be brave. Things change.

I want there to be New Years Eve fic about Jared and Jensen getting tipsy on champagne and kissing at midnight.

Love you guys, now and always. Here's to 2014! *clinks glasses*
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thoughts for year's end

Let our New Year's resolution be this:
we will be there for one another as fellow members of humanity,
in the finest sense of the word.
--Goran Persson

Year's end is neither an end nor a beginning but a going on,
with all the wisdom that experience can instill in us.
--Hal Borland

For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
--T.S. Eliot

"It doesn't matter if we think we're fearless or if we do things while quaking.
The important thing is to be true to our own dreams and live authentic lives."
-- Diane Conway