October 8th, 2014

Be Brave

Quote of the Day

"Power is of two kinds. One is obtained by the fear of punishment and the other by the art of love. Power based on love is a thousand times more effective and permanent than the one derived by the fear of punishment."
--Mohandas Gandhi
SPN: Sam Gun Tuck

praying that the holy water don't go dry

Yesterday, myself and a couple of co-workers moved an extremely heavy desk. We did it, and I was proud, but good gravy. J hurt his knee, and I had a headache all day (no one was amused by my joking that I'd burst a blood vessel in my brain). Woke up this morning and HOLY CRAP I am sore.

Also, I ate Orange Leaf for dinner.

I have been really low. Work is difficult, personal life is crazytown, my normal escapes are either not working or have become non-existent...I don't know what is happening with anything. I feel like I'm on the nerves of everyone I know, all the time. And, honestly, I almost hope that is true because every one I know is on my nerves, all the time. I'm tired of being ignored, of being blamed for everything, of always being in second place, of never being seen, of never being valued.

I'm not asking for sympathy, truly. Just trying to put it out there so I can process and deal. I've been good about trying to walk, which has helped my sleeping. wincon is next week and that always refreshes me. I get Becca and an adventure TOMORROW. My birthday is soon!

Trying hard to focus on good things, I am, I swear!

I really want to read some fic -- the dirtier, the better. If you have a rec, I'd love to have it!