I can read Sam's mind (wendy) wrote,
I can read Sam's mind

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it's the way I'm feeling I just can't deny

Seriously, every time I look at Twitter, something offends me, hurts my feelings, or I get the overwhelming urge to thump someone in the forehead. I do not know what it is about that medium that makes me so insane. I am aware that the common denominator there is ME and that it's up to ME to get a grip...but this is why I've been staying away from Twitter lately. I know you're all crushed as I was (not) enormously prolific there anyway. But gaaaahhhhhh. *shakes fist at Twitter* Seriously. It makes me even crazier than normal.

I've also been doing a lot of thinking lately about myself. Over Dallas weekend, I had some pretty bad behavior on my behalf drawn to my attention. It was fairly appalling. I mean, I consider myself to be pretty tolerant of other people and I sincerely had no idea I was judging people based on this specific thing. (I am aware this is annoyingly cryptic.) So, ok, I vowed to myself that I wouldn't do it anymore. And then, two days later, I DID IT AGAIN!!!! But, at least this time, after the fact I was all...WHAT DID I JUST DO. And so now I'm trying really hard to think before speaking, and to actually weigh my own thoughts. I'm getting better at shutting that behavior down, which is good as it's a terrible thing to do. So. Cryptic self improvement is occurring.

And, I also have been thinking a lot lately about processing information. Like, how some people need to hash it out repeatedly or how some people (by which I mean me) process quickly and make fast decisions. Not sure one way is better or worse, but it does help to be patient with each other. (Communicate with patience and love. *repeats to self*)

I am not COMPLAINING about any of these things, I feel I need to strongly disclaim that. In fact, I'm grateful for them. All of these instances have taught me a great deal about myself and how I cope with the world in general-- and how I could be coping much better. That's nothing but a good thing.
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