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it's your right to do whatever you like

So. OK. Work still is uber-stressful and the toxic co-worker is still glaring daily daggers into my back and mostly I am just exhausted and emotional and starting to dread going to work, a place I actually love.

One of my summer goals is to journal more about my actual feelings, so I made the decision yesterday to post about how I'm back in a depressive state and struggling to get out. I wanted to ask for suggestions and support, because that is how I deal. I also planned to do something lazy that I love -- namely, I go into work late on Wednesdays, so I planned to come home Tuesday night and just...sprawl on the couch until midnight watching the Olympics. I wanted to just relax and revel and soak up all the swimming and gymnastics I could handle. I could sleep in the next day, so staying up late is a big, big treat to myself.

Got off work Tuesday evening and went home to find the thermostat in my house registering at 90 degrees. The AC was completely non-functioning. (I just had the entire fan mechanism replaced in may when it was non-functional then. SIGH.)

My parents currently are in San Antonio taking care of Addison and Drew while my brother is working De La Vida for a week, as he does every summer. Aaaannndd, my sister-in-law has been in the hospital, so they're taking care of her too. I get the impression it's been a stressful trip for them. ANYWAY. They handled the AC repair in May, so I called to find out who they used so I could make them come back. My Mom melted down a little, which I still feel really bad about. But we got the guy called and he is coming out sometime today to fix it.

In the meantime, Mom suggested I pack up the dogs and abscond to her house for the night, which I did! I'd rather not discuss how fast I drove the 40 minutes over here, but I did make it in time to get settled AND see Michael Phelps swim AND see the women's team gymnastics finals. AHHH SUCCESS. I maybe cried a little, but I figure that's only good for me at this stage in the game.

My parents have a huge house, so I feel about like I'm staying in a hotel without them here. Lest you misunderstand, I LIKE that feeling. It's been a really nice escape from reality. Plus, they have a fancy coffee machine, which I successfully used this morning! *bows*

The only downside is that I was up until about midnight (see: Olympics) and the dogs woke me up at 6:30 a.m., so I don't really know how I am going to deal with the AC guy AND work until 8 p.m., but we shall see! It all has to happen, so I suspect that it will. You do what you gotta do, right?

ANYWHOO. Crazy whirlwind of life, as always. More later if I ever make it home again. Much love! ♥
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